ive moved. if i love you i'll tell u where i am.

..im bak....! =] [i'll blog later okies?]

 

CURRENT

.. current hair: down and straight

.. current annoyance: the teacher

.. current smell: nothing

.. current desktop picture: mm..at home its a red supra

.. current book: puahah. my precal book. jk

.. current worry: school

.. current hate: how im so tired and i cant sleep.. -_-

.. story behind your username: innoxent is innocent obviously and im pretty innocent..? well. my girls and i use to come up with nicknames for eachother and this one was mine and talitha is sweety [of course] and diane is d-ravah. etc. etc.

.. current favorite article of clothing: my poofy coat cuz im so effin cold >.<

.. i am happiest when: im sleeping or with..maii grlies..or..*aheM* haha

.. i feel lonely when: i wait in the cold in the mornings for the bus.

.. favorite authors: haha. none. doii.

.. do you have any regrets: sum..but after a while i stop regretting them.

.. sex or love: love.

.. what makes you mad: my mommie cuz she's gon take my fone away.

.. favorite way to waste time: chat online, talk on dee fone, or play GB. HAHA.

.. any bad habits: procrastinating?

.. do you find it hard to trust people: its hard to find people u can trust but for some reason i trust people hella easily.

.. last thing you bought yourself: oo shoes. haha.

.. favorite season: summer cuz its WARM..

..favorite color: red..beginning to like pINk.

 FASHION

.. do you wear a watch: nuh uh.

.. favorite stores: forever21?

.. ever spend more then $200 in a store?: do i look like a baller?

.. do your friends know everything about you: no

LAST

.. last book you read: The scarlet letter

.. last movie you saw: Finding nemo.

.. last movie you saw on the big screen: Finding nemo. HAHA. sad eh?

.. last show you watched on tv: Madtv

.. last song you heard: Frankie J- we still

.. last thing you had to drink: water...no more soda for me.

.. last thing you ate: Fettuccini Alfredo. and ice cream after that.

.. last time you showered: Last nite

.. last time you smiled: This morning.
.. last person you hugged: Raymond. =]

.. last person you talked to online: uhm. peter?

.. last person you talked to on the phone: Talitha

 DO YOU

.. sleep with stuffed animals: yeaa. maii pooooooh bear.

.. have a dream that keeps coming back: no

.. play an instrument: naadaa

.. believe there is life on other planets: nuh uh

.. read the newspaper: nopE

.. consider yourself tolerant: yes

.. go to church: yeaa sumtimes.

.. have any secrets: yea.

.. have any pets: no . i wish.

.. go or plan to attend college: of course

.. have any piercings: yes my ears. but i want moreee.

.. hate yourself: no

.. like your handwriting: iew no.

.. sing in the shower: not ne more.

 BODY ILLS AND SKILLS

.. Nervous Habits:dun have any i think. well when i was nervous driving one time i kept touching my nose. i dont know why..haha.but i dunt do that ne more.

.. Are you double jointed?: no

.. Can you roll your tongue?: yea? i think so. kinda sexii eh? haha. SYKE.

.. Can you raise one eyebrow at a time?: mm..no.

.. Can you blow spit bubbles?: iew..no. hahaha. I dont know how people do that. i tried. didnt work.

.. Can you cross your eyes?: yeap

.. Do you make your bed daily?: puahahaha...no.im so bad. >.<

CLOTHES

.. Which shoe goes on first?: wutever shoe is closest to me goes on first.

.. Speaking of shoes, have you ever thrown one at anyone?: haha no.

.. What jewelry do you wear 24/7?: loop earings. 7 white gold bracelet thingies. and my heart necklace my ex gave me. but today i took it off..just so i can wear my cool pink necklace i just got. LOL...

.. Pajamas: thoose...velourish pants or wutever their called. their fuzzy.. and a tank.

 MANNERS

.. Do you swear?: ooo. yes. i do. i shouldnt. but i think ive been swearing a lot lately..specially when im kinda..buzzed. but thats not gon happen agen.

.. Do you ever spit?: no.

WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE

.. Animal: tiger..panda..dogggiess!! lol.

.. Month: december. holiday. snow. birthday. presents. nuff said.

.. Day: friday and saturday

.. Shoe Brand: Cathy Jean? haha i dont know..
.. Subject in school: oo this is easy..lunch. =] jk.
.. Tv show: don have one ..hmm..room raiders is interesting..*shrugs*

IN AND AROUND

.. Ever taken a cab? yes

.. What color is your bedroom?: white

.. Do you use an alarm clock?: not really. i use my celly.
.. Window seat or aisle?: window

 LA LA LAND

.. What's your sleeping position?: on my side huggin my poooh bear.

.. Even in hot weather do you use a blanket?: yes

.. Do you snore?: no

.. Do you sleepwalk?: no
.. Do you talk in your sleep?: i dont but i think i mite have the other day cuz i just got off the fone with someone before sleeping. and i thought i was still on the fone. lol.

.. How about with the light on?: nope. onlee wunce or so when i was hella skerrrdd. and no one there to protect me when im home alone.

.. Do you fall asleep with the TV or radio on?: with my slowwww jamz playin.

If you think you are beaten, you are,

If you think you dare not, you don’t.

If you like to win, but you think you can’t,

It is most certain you won’t.

 

If you think you’ll lose, you’re lost,

For out in the world we find,

Success begins with a fellow’s will-

It’s all in the STATE OF MIND.

 

If you think you are outclassed, you are,

You’ve got to think high to rise,

You’ve got to be sure of yourself before

You can ever win a prize.

 

Life’s battles don’t always go

To the stronger or faster man,

But soon or late the man who wins

Is the man WHO THINKS HE CAN!

-Napolean Hill

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.past.
okie lately things have really been shitty. this is mos def not my month even though its suppose to be the best month of the year. This is my favorite month, because theres snow, my birthday, xmas, and no school for half the month. Things should be going great! but their not..ive been crying so much lately that i dont understand why i keep making all these mistakes all at once.

Me and mr guy are just friends, like i said before and it is final this time im sure because i can tell by the way he acts towards me now. things are really different but i try to talk to him anyways because i still wanna be friends. I dont want to bugg him but i still enjoy talking to him because even though we're not talking about anything special he still brings a smile to my face no matter what. I guess thats why i've been calling a lot lately because i need something to make me smile.

School is still the same. My progress isnt improving. i have lower grades in different classes than before and higher grades in different grades also. blah i really need to start concentrating and gettin my shit straight because i cant keep doing this..! but i have no motivation to do better and no one there to push me. Although i shouldnt need anyone but me myself and i and i should be motivated to do better for my future...

family, whoa okay..haha. Well first of all i made mistake here too. For winter break i was planning on going down to Vegas to stay with my sister and her hubby and work for their dental office. To train and get paid since i really need the money and the training for the summer when i'll be going down there to work. Well, I found out my mom and her boo is going and i was like.."ehh....mom...no fun...[kill joy]" and so i was questioning whether i wanted to go or not..i mean i love my mom but uh..haha. yeaaa..Then i talked to my sister and she said i wasnt going to get paid for working and that it would just be training because they're really busy now but she doesnt have the money to hire someone new. so thats where i come in.. So then im thinking, going for two weeks, with my mom and her boo, working every day except xmas and sunday...for two weeks..and i dont get paid. and i dont get to spend new years here with my friends like i really wanted to and i spend xmas with my sister my mom and her boo. Thats it..wow. okay. doesnt sound too exciting ne more. but i still wanted to go because if my sister needs help than i really wanna help her out. She's alway sbeen there for me and i should be there for her right..But a lot of people said i should stay here because it IS winter break and the holidays, who wants to work for their holiday break when its suppose to be a BREAK off of school to relax and just do wutever. buti know i shouldnt always listen to what people say but follow what i think is right.

seconds thoughts and i was going to go anyways but theni talked to my daddy and he also said ishould stay, so i was okay maybe i can stay but i dont want to unless its okay with my sister. i mean if she hella needs my help than i'll go. Because of course she means more to me than going out and shit like that right. But i guess we got in this big situation where my mom and my sister are hella dissapointed in me for no wanting to go because i shouldnt have seconds thought about helping my sister out. i should be happy to go down there and help her with or without pay no matter what because she is always there for me and i should be there for her. That one day when i need her help she might not be there to help me because i wasnt willing to help her out. So my mom's said that my sister was going to give me her car but now i cant have it ne more because my she's giving it to my mom instead because i dont deserve of it. So then since my mom is such a "nice" mom she doesnt want to take it from my sister and so she's buying my sister's car for herself. And she's going to sell her present car because she says i wont appreciate it because im not willing to help my sister so they will neverhelp me find a job and help me financially like to buy me a car or something. Because since im not willing to help, they dont want to help me ever again. So she's telling me that they wont ever help me with anything ne more so i shouldnt even bother because they "know how i am" now.

so then she says my sister changes her mind and says she doesnt need my help anymore, and that since in the summer time she doesnt really need my help in the first place and and she needs help now, and im not helping, so i dont get to go down there in the summer either. get it? So she's telling me to find my own dayam job at the mall or something and blah blah. She says i can just go to my dad's house for the winter break because my sister doesnt want to see me come down anyways and dont bother to call my mom or my sister during break or xmas because they dont want to talk to me. She says dont expect anything ever from them, no birthday presents, no xmas presents, no help, no nothing. uh first of all i dont expect any of that aniways. i was like..gee thanks mom your so kind. lets punish me for making a little mistake. i swear i feel like everything i do turns into this bit issue when i dont intentionally mean it to be and i seem to have to be "punished' for the rest of my life over something that i did. Its like geez ima be 17, and you expect me to always be doing the right thing and making the right choices. After all this drama shit i was like well then i'll go down there and help her than i have no problems with that and i'll be willing to go and i WANT to go because it'll be good training anyways for the summer and the breaks i planned to go down tehre [although i'll proly wont be going anywher anymore...] and plus i can say its volunteer work or something. but geez.. no ones perfect and if ive dissapointed you then im sorry. shiit.

.present.
okie currently im sitting in my info proc class. bUt lets talk about my weekend even though thats kinda the "past". Friday night was mariner's tolo and me and my girls have been looking forward to this dance for a long ass time. LAT-T [livi april talitha tracy] yeeeeuhhh.. aniways. I find out right after school friday that they didnt recieve my permission slip thing and so i couldnt get in because i wasnt on "the list". so i waslike uhhh what the hell..i know i turned it in and shit. so im calling mariner and kamiak and wutever the hell hella times. I called the woman in charge of the dance a twice and she said i wasnt on the list aned there was no way for me to get in and blah blah if i wasnt on the list. So then i didnt know what to do. I had talitha pick me up aniways and we both got ready for the dance at her house. On the way there i was so scared because i didnt think i could get in. I wasnt going home this weekend either so I had to bring my shit with me and my homework and a lot of stuff. So im in my bubble jacket, my purse, my backpack, and my forever 21 bag. yes everyone is carrying barely anything cuz its a dance for goodness sake but nooo i have to look liek an idiot.

so then i saw the principal Mr. Kline. I never really liked him...i always thought he was racist or something. haha. but aniways i went up and talked to him about the situation and maybe we can work something out. noooo he'll only answer is "you cant get in unless your on the list". okiee FINE, so i walked over to the table where the lady was sitting and the girls that were helping out with the tickets and stuff. i asked one of the girls to check if i was on the list cuz i wanna double check before i walk out. she was looking for my name and then the lady starts to help her and she goes ..."wait..arent you the girl that called earlier..?" i was like.."yea...." and she goes.."i told you already you werent on the list. you cant get in.*gives me this look*" and THEN stoopid Mr. Kline walks over "didnt i just tell you u couldnt get in?! what are you doing!??!" and i was like."GEEEz..i jux wanted to double check if i was on the list.." andi walked off with all these people lookin at me weird. so i walk outside because my grls left me already and went inside. i was like..oo gee thanks u guys.. but its all good.

So i was leavin and i guess i was going to walk to maii grl Soapie's house since i couldnt get in, so i started walking and i was about to cross the street when Erwin comes running after me and tells me to come back, so i walk back with him and then he says he's going to sneak me in.. okie im sorry im chicken shiit. im skerrrrrd. I wouldnt pull through..and poor erwin was gettin all mad. lOl. because i wanted to get in but id idnt wanna sneak in.. so then..mr kline is like watchin us because we look hella suspicious. haha. he walked into the school building more and so he couldnt see anything.. So i ran to the side of the building and duck down under the window thing. Then erwin went in and opened the side door..and i RAN like a mofo up the stairs ducking down so no one could see me. So i went in and found the girls an di put my shit down but the girls were going to take pixtures but i didnt know they were doing it THEN, and since i didnt know and no one came to make sure where i was. they took it without me. awww gee. But is all good cuz i was trippin out hella. i was hella scared to get caught and get kicked out and shit. But i eased up a bit and enjoyed the dance.

the dance wasnt bomb but it was something to do i guess for a friday night you know? Some shit came up with my homegirls because people were ditchin eachother and dancing off. and all this crap. Its okay i tried to do the best i can to stay with the people that were being left out or something because idont wanna leave them hanging andshit.. I'd rather stick with them then dance and ignore them uknow. But i have to admit i did go off a couple times. I saw maddd people i havent seen since skoool.!! they're like HEYYY..wat are you doing here. saw maii grlie Somealear, theresa, christine, katie, jared, moe, albert, erwin, tory, christine V, list goes on... lol AFter the dance i saw Paul and i said wsup, so then i went hhome with my cousin Hai [yes the fag..jk] and my uncle drove me home. I went in and woke my sister up. lol. Made her go downstairs and watch tv with me for a bit while i drink sum soda because i was thirsty as a mofo. slept .

saturday all i did was homework and babysit my little brother . PLayed with him because he wouldnt let me do my homwork and kept crawling over to me and stuff. lol. In the evening i went to the mall with my Dad, stepmom, stepsister, and my half brother. oo look . going to the mall with the family. havent done that for a long ass time. Lol. aniway we went to get my Phatfarms! hell yeaaa!!! my bithday present frm daddy. =]. Ive been wanting these for helllllaaaaaaaaaaaaa long. But then i went with my stepmom to get make up at M.a.c because she wanted the same stuff i had. Then i ran into hella headz. I saw maii grl trinity, dru, eric, jon, luong, i saww maii homegrl Aileen!!! i havent seen her ass in forever. with Renny and sum girls i dont know. I ran into erwin, reggie, and sum other fooz. Then i visited Rich because he was workin. Pretty keww.went home ate and watched sum quality tv and went to bed.

sunday just did my homework and my gay french xmas drawing. my sister was clownin on them. lol. I went home at night and called mr guy for like..15minutes or something and went to sleeep..

.future.
This wednesday is my mofo'n birthday!!! hahaha. yeeeuh..go go go go go go...go me..its my birthday..we gon party like its my birthday..we gon sip bacardi like its my birthday..haha...no actually i dont drink. But i wouldnt mind drinking for my birthday..hahaha..buht shhh.>.< None of that gettin drunk stuff that mr VAN and people are sayin i should do. lol. Someone should take me out to eat on wednesdaY!! Olive garden. lol. jk jk. o wait i lieeeee Robert's cooking for me . hahaha. what a great buddy 'ol pal. just dont...kill me..haha.

this saturday i wanted to do something for my birthday. i know! i still havent had the time to plan something yet. But i want to dos omething different. But the time has to work out . so talitha gets off around2..and april works at 5..and i gotta bounce to my cousin's birthday party at 6pm. so i guess its going to be 2-5. LOL. What should we do? maybe i'll just have people over if we cant think of anything? Buht yea holla if you got ideas.

so with the whole mother and sister situation. it really looks like im staying here. because i havent been talking to any of them and i havent recieved an itinerary yet when i know my mom has because i checked. lol. im nosy. iknow. So basically since she got one and i didnt, i guess that means im not going. okieeeee theeeennn...If anyone wants to kick it during winter break just holla at your girl. you know dem digits. i think. thats it. lol. [this took me a whole class period to write] so i hope your eyes dont hurt too much because ive written like a novel. haha. peace out.

do this please? lol. jacked frm talitha.

1. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
2. Am I loveable?
3. How long have you known me?
4. What was your first impression?
5. Do you still think that way about me now?
6. What do you think my weakness is?
7. What makes me happy?
8. What makes me sad?
9. What color are my eyes?
10. What color is my hair?
11. What reminds you of me?
12. If you could give me anything what would it be?
13. How well do you know me?
14. When's the last time you saw me?
15. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldnt?
16. Do you think I could kill someone?
17. Describe me in one word.
18. Do you think our friendship is getting stronger/weaker/or staying the same?
19. Do you feel like you could talk to me and I would listen?

i think the final decision has been made. and this time..im fine with it completely. I was just thinking about this last night too..that this is how it should be, and you came along and brought it up. I believe this is for the best. from here on out..we're are taking our separate paths, but in the future if things were meant to be, then i know we'll meet again...but we're still friends. =]

my birthday is coming up..! who wants to celebrate with me.??? *Cough DEC17 Cough* I wanna do something different and unique. The past two years' birthdays have been realllyyyy great. So this year i wanna keep it that way. =] two years ago, i had a whole bunch of people over at my house and we just chilled, danced, a few of the stayed the night, took hella hella hella pictures!! AND the best part, my homegirls threw ice cream cake all over my hair and face, not a pretty site but it was hilarious, they ran upstairs into my bathroom and locked the door. I ran and grabbed some ice cream cake and ran up the stairs, had someone pop the lock for me since its so easy, and then i got THEM ALL back muahaha. it was funnie they all jumped into the bathtub and tried to close the glass thing and hide. hehe.

THen last year, i spent my birthday, with maii ex hunnie. =] and then i had a mini family party get-together. and then i also rented out a place and had friends come, i think there was like 60 people there. It was pretty kew, shooting pool, dancing, breaking, lots of foood, lots of presents. =] This year i wasnt planning on doing anything but who wants to spend their birthday alone? I wanna spend it with someone special like last year, but too bad i dont have a mister special anymore. SO i got maii grlies. heck yea.! haha. help me come up with something you guys..!!